I would have never imagined myself as a teacher. I never thought I would have the patience to take a step back and slowly go through what may seem so easy to me. At times like this, I really do feel like I have stepped into all of my previous teachers’ and professors’ shoes. It definitely isn’t an easy job. Maybe many of the teachers out there really do love kids and love to teach them everything about the world but heck, that’s a lot of effort even if you do love your job. But then again, I guess there’s the saying that if you really do love your job, time will just fly by. I guess the conclusion is that I don’t love my job… just yet. Will I ever grow to love it? I don’t know. It’s not like I dreamed to be a teacher. It was probably the last thing I was thinking of. Somehow, here I am, in a different country teaching little kids English. The hardest thing for me is probably managing the kids and getting them to focus. It has been so long since I’ve been a kid that I don’t remember why… kids act the way they are. For as long as I can remember, I was a good quiet little one that focused in class… but then again maybe that was just me, from my own perspective.

The one up side to this job is that I’m not officially a teacher. What I mean by that is that I don’t go through a strict curriculum and have to teach the kids a certain set of words or grammar points. Rather my job, as a SCHOLAR, is to make learning English fun for them. All while hoping that they do learn something along the way. I guess I just haven’t found quite that balance of just letting the kids have fun yet. At times I feel like my strict-gotta learn-personality makes my methods very… dull for the kids. I have to remember that not everybody is interested in the same thing, nonetheless learning a different language. Now it’s time to remember being a fun little kid! The writing process of this post, for me, was just me thinking out loud. I’m just trying to figure out what my goals and job as a “teacher” are and how I should go about attaining them. Now it’s time to do some research 🙂 Well first, I have one more class to teach~